what do you do when a relationship has broken down and fallen into such disrepair and there doesn’t seem to be a way to come back from it?

where once there was enthusiasm about things, factoring the person into plans, prioritizing the person’s well-being. now all that’s left is a sense of obligation. 

this was never the kind of relationship i wanted. it leaves a bitter taste in the mouth and a heaviness in the heart. 

but there’s no going back too. i don’t want to go back to how it was in the past. i don’t even want to try or make any effort to do so. 

it’s like the heart has been stabbed a thousand times. how do you ever recover from something like that?