many moments i really felt like breaking down and just crying, letting it all out. but i hold back. maybe i just don’t want others to see how weak i am, how i’m not really coping at all. 

but the kindness of the people around me is also probably what stopped me from really breaking down. thankful for those who are supportive and always cheering me on, always providing support that really goes above and beyond. thankful for being able to meet up with an old friend that made me realize how much i missed having her in my life.