regrets come. but it's already too late. 

we say we will learn from this and not make the same mistake again. but time and time again we commit the same mistakes over and over. 

when will we ever learn?

how screwed up everything is. and how screwed up i am. 

it's that i feel that people minimize my concerns and what i'm going though. maybe people do think highly of me. but i guess i wish that people could acknowledge that i'm struggling and that it's ok for me to struggle. 

that's all. just really need to rant.