;i'm sorry i can't be perfect.

self-doubt

why, oh why do we have to do an assignment and upload it to the forum for everyone to see?

so much pressure.

i already suffer from so much self-doubt, now it's worse.

running out of time. eeks!

doubts and incompetency

as i write, i'm haunted by feelings of incompetency. making me doubtful of what i'm writing. making the process much longer and much more painful.

trying to hang in there. the only comfort (or not) is that it will all be over soon.

absence

i thought i was fine.
but apparently i'm not.
it's a dull ache.
persistent.

a special little girl

my heart broke.

you're still so young.
you should be studying hard, playing hard and enjoying your youth.
you should not have to worry for your family.
you should not have to give up your education and your future to support your family.
you should be carefree.

and there's all the words left unsaid.
all the things that i wanted to do for you but never had the ability to.
all the things that i wanted to do with you but never had the chance to.
all these regrets.

i know that leaving doesn't mean i would never see you again. it doesn't mean i can't do the things i always wanted to do with you and for you. it just makes it harder to happen.

but somehow i'll do my best to make it happen and i'm holding out hope that we'll meet again. stay safe and take care of yourself. i love you and i always will.

waiting for school to be over

can't believe i cried over an assignment.
it's been such a long time since i did that.

headaches are also back with a vengeance.

and all these cos of school.

really hate that i'm so affected by school. hate that my grades matter so much to me.

words can't describe how much i want school to be over. after 20 years of studying, it's really time for a break. i'm sure work will bring with it different set of problems. but for now, i just want to get out of school. it's way too stressful.

please let me get through the semester smoothly.

i'm freaking screwed.
i don't know half of what i'm doing.
freakkkkkkk,
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