;i'm sorry i can't be perfect.

exams are killing me.

i have no appetite. worse, i can't even sleep. it takes ages for me to sleep. and when i do get to sleep, it's a fitful one.

i don't understand why i'm so afraid of exams. but i'm sick of this stupid fear that's crippling me.

this is super unhealthy. :( fed up with myself and how i let the fear control me!

原谅我的任性

of all the times, my laptop has to be down now. wtf. and i didn't back up my files. super fed up.

Maybe ur laptop trying to help you concentrate while it takes a break at the same time:-P

thanks manhong. love your powerful reframing skills!

exams scare me.

after so many years i'm still scared of exams. first exam on saturday, i can only pray that everything will be fine.

most importantly, i need to remind myself that exams are the means to an end and not an end by itself. i'm studying not just to pass my exams. it's to help me when i'm out in the field. i need to drill this in my head.

motivation

a dosage of inspiration. a motivation.

thank you :)

stressing about accounts when you're supposed to be studying for exams really sucks :/

i'm so not going to handle money (or rather money that does not belong to me) anymore!

perfect two

妈妈说一道彩虹是半圆

两道彩虹是团圆

等到有一天天上有两道彩虹的时候

我就可以跟我爸爸团圆了

-小小彬

finally got to watch zai zai on the big screen! :D i'm a happy happy girl! it's been 11 years and i'm still charmed by zai zai! i'm 自high-ing now :D

happy days

a day pretty much wasted,
since i had to wake up super early and slept almost my whole day away after.

but an awesome day still :)
because i finally got to meet wei wen!
been so long since we had some quality time together.
miss those days when we used to go home together,
where we would talk at the mrt station and end up being fined for overstaying.

even though it's been such a long time since i met him,
it's just like old times,
where we could talk about anything under the sun
where conversation was effortless.
the only thing that's changed is that we've both grown and matured through the years.

8 years. 8 years is a long time.
maybe we've stop needing each other so much like before.
we don't call each other when things happen.
we don't meet up as often.
but i guess that doesn't reduce the importance that we hold in each other's lives. :)

i was wrong in the past. thinking that you stopped caring.
but when you told me that through your 9months of OCS,
my picture was in your bunk,
i felt ashamed of myself.

thank you for being such an awesome brother through these past 8 years wei wen! :D

it's the little things that make you smile :)
so thrilled even if i don't show it. :p hehe.
~~acting like a schoolgirl now.~~

care

memories aren't stored in the heart or the head or even the soul, if you ask me, but in the spaces between any given two people - Jodi Picoult (Vanishing Acts)

i realized something.

that if you don't care, you can't get hurt.

you won't be disappointed.

and maybe that's for the best.

that we close ourselves up,

till we find someone worth caring for.

and if that person continually disappoints,

maybe it's for the best

that we close ourselves up again.

so that we won't keep getting hurt.

took me so long to realize this.

but guess what, i finally did.

and i don't know if i should feel happy or sad about it.
but...i finally stop hurting.

moments of impact

My theory is about moments, moments of impact. My theory is that these moments of impact, these flashes of high intensity that completely turn our lives upside down actually end up defining who we are. The thing is each one of us is the sum total of every moment that we’ve ever experienced with all the people we’ve ever known. And it’s these moments that become our history. Like our own personal greatest hits of memories that we play and replay in our minds over and over again. Life's all about moments of impact and how they changes our lives forever. But what if one day you could no longer remember any of them? - The Vow

a moment

sick and miserable

it's past 1am and i'm miserably lying on my bed. been trying to sleep since 9plus. and i slept for awhile fitfully. till I had the urge to vomit. it's been three times already. diarrhea for four times. my stomach is so queasy. i can't sleep even though i'm tired cos all of a sudden I need to go to the toilet.

it's really so tempting to wake my parents up. i guess i'm used to being pampered. but i shalln't cos my mum has work tml and there's nothing they can do in the middle of the night.

just here to whine cos there's nobody else to whine too at this time in the night. i hope I'll get some sleep soon.

acts of kindness

acts of kindness can really make your day!

thanks auntie at the bus stop for helping me stop the bus when you saw me running :)

i was feeling so frustrated because the lady in front of me blocked the whole path even though i kept saying excuse me. but i managed to catch the bus cos of this act of kindness! thanks! :)

nice?

you can't play nice all the time

18 minutes

18 minutes.
18 minutes of happiness
talking to a dear friend all the way in cambodia.
thank you bell (:

summer paradise

i want my summer paradise too.
chilling at the beach. listening to the waves.

oh wait, i have no summer to speak of.
because of placement. :(

i want my holidays!

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