keep my fingers crossed that everything will go well!

but that won't stop me from asking him to drive me :p

when you told me you do miss her. my heart hurt for you. i'm sure the pain you feel is so much worse than that. but i didn't know how to reply. what do you say to a friend when he tells you something like this? words of comfort? but it seems so empty because nothing you say can ever bring the person back.

in the end, after a few seconds of awkward silence, you laughed it off and changed the topic. i'm sorry my dear friend. sorry for not being able to broach the topic with you. sorry for being so helpless. if it means anything, i wish i had the chance to know her. i'm sure she was a wonderful person. i've seen what she've done and i've seen what a wonderful person you are. she lives on in your heart and in the work that you're doing. she'll be proud to see you as the person you are now.

i know you'll never ever see this but i hope somehow you'll be able to feel whatever i've conveyed here. i'm proud of you, my friend.

who you wished were there,

who you thought will be there,

aren't.

it's others who are there.

and you wonder where did you go wrong.