why do i always feel that i've drifted from everyone i've know?

have i changed?

is it my insecurity all over again?

maybe i really need a tight slap to wake me up. or maybe i need words of assurance. but i know it shouldn't be this way.

this week has been awesome! :D

1. meet up with fas, manhong, jean and jessica on monday (:

2. meet up with tecky on wed (:

3. meet up with mel, guolian and tsuhui on thurs (:

4. meet up with sheena on friday (:

5. meet up with shao shiuan today (:

6. wild wild wet with guolian, sheena, huimin, esther and sini tomorrow (:

getting together with friends is ♥! catching up and just being comfortable in each other's company.

i realised a lot of things is about opening your hearts and minds, forgiving and forgetting. jealousy is something that really clouds one's judgement. i feel so small when i think about how petty and jealous i've been sometimes. hopefully i'll be able to control my emotions better next time. i guess i'm finally growing up. :x

on a side note, i really miss the people in UNACAS so much! hopefully, i'll be back in June 2011! :D

with my dearest friends <3

and no longer what really comes from the bottom of the heart.

i am disappointed in you and it only makes me guilty for thinking this way. maybe i'm expecting too much. but i didn't make you promise or say anything that you didn't want to. you said it but didn't do it. actions speak louder than words. if you're really busy, just don't say or promise anything. i probably will understand and won't feel upset by it. at times, i feel happy waiting, but other times i feel foolish for waiting, just like now.

and understand that it's only because you're a friend i treasure that i'll feel this way. (not like you'll read this anyway)

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where are you now?

cause i'm thinking of you.