;i'm sorry i can't be perfect.

maybe it's just me being oversensitive. but the way it sounds, it felt that i was being petty. it felt that i was the one at fault. it didn't feel good. my mood is swinging, like seriously. i was so happy talking to mel on the phone and suddenly the mood swinged down again. please don't make this into something unhappy. don't bring my mood down. fml.

despite how i feel. just shut up. sometimes that's for the best. damn.

jealousy

why do i feel so jealous easily? i don't like these feelings of jealousy. i'm sure people around me don't like it either. but somehow that tinge of jealousy just rises and i will have to convince myself to feel otherwise. i should have faith in people around me. i should have faith that i am still as important to them as before. it's all about believing, about trust.

i really hate the fact that i always need assurance for every little thing. it's time to grow up, mature and be comfortable in my own skin.

no. i'm not a nice person. don't think too well of me.

tired

and there it goes again. do you know how much i resent you at times? do you know how much i hate myself for resenting you? you say i always pick a quarrel or a fight. but do you know how many times you do the same too. even if i swear to god that i was talking in a nice tone and out of curiousity i ask a simple question, you also have to flare up. sometimes, i would rather not talk. stay silent so there's no trouble. but no, if i were to do that, you would say i don't bother to listen. you tell me something, so am i to agree with everything you say? if you want to have a proper conversation, of course it includes my feedbacks not just you talking and i agreeing with what you say. do you know how tired i am of all this? do you know that i keep wondering why this is happening? and do you know how much you make me hate myself cause of this? i'm sick of this. so sick of this.
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