anyway, i think i finally know the answer to the many questions i had. it does not matter anymore. it shouldn't. the past is meant to be kept and occasionally taken out to reminisce. it's not something to hold on too. what's in the past remains in the past. you can't change the past. but you can work on your present and determine the future. the feelings i had were a thing of the past. they aren't a thing of the present. i've just been clinging on too tightly to let go. as time pass, things change, people change. we've both changed. so why do i hold on to something that no longer exists? it's extremely foolish. and it's time i learn to let go. 

i found this somewhere:

this is something i should have done 2 years ago but i'm ready to do it now. in fact, i should be satisfied with what i have now. and you know what, i'm really glad we're acquaintances if not friends now. at least we're not strangers anymore.

EXAMS ARE OVER! really felt a sense of relief wash over me when i finally submitted the exam paper. end of year 2 and the start of holidays. going to work during the holidays! most importantly, probably a family trip to hong kong which is like YAY! the last time we went for a holiday together was when i was 8 years old? thats like 10-11 years ago already. furthermore, it was to malaysia only.  HONG KONG, here i come! :D woohoo!

yesterday celebrated eunice's birthday at bre's father's restaurant, Taglio at the Central Mall (6 Eu Tong Sen Street #01-67, 6227-1795). her dad was really nice and the food was pretty good! we were all filled to the max after the whole meal! headed for drinks later. overall, it was really enjoyable. and probably the first time we had an outing with more than half the class in attendance? anyway, happy birthday eunice! :D 

group photo! :D

cake baked by bre! delicious!

the birthday girl!

the birthday girl and me!

on another note, i feel a sense of guilt. my soreness has turned me into a terrible person. ): suddenly, i don't like who i am. i think i'm such a bad bad person.  

this video is really good. it placed second in some competition! must watch!

the thing about exams is that i fear them which is kind of silly. but going to exam is like going onto a battlefield for me. i'm always so nervous till i experience stomachaches before the exam and butterflies in my tummy. my hands turn cold. then again, if i'm better prepared would i feel this way? 

and the worst thing is i only regret procrasinating and slacking only on the day of the exam or at most just one day before? and this is too late to regret. plus, you would think one would change after all these unnecessary regrets. but some things just don't change. or maybe i just do not seek that change which is really bad. 

time to study for the next paper. exams seriously suck.

喜欢你，还是喜欢当时被爱的感觉？

想念你，还是想念曾经与你度过的美好回忆？

想念你，还是想念当时被爱的感觉？

放不下你，还是放不下曾经与你度过的美好回忆？

放不下你，还是放不下当时没爱的感觉？

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met up with guolian and angeline for dinner today! :D though time spent together was short but it was definitely quality time! :D had a lovely time! especially since it's been quite some time since i last saw guolian! they gave me my birthday present! thanks loads! i really love it! they even had a theme to the presents : HAPPY! 

i'm seriously not sad. so don't worry guys! :D like i said before sad+happy=neutral. so i'm neutral most of the times though it does tip both ways at times! :D but thanks a million! and angeline i hope you like your present too!

the lovely array of presents telling me to be happy!

i'm seriously glad that it's over. it had been a really hetic week. and my stress level was shooting up with all the changes being made here and there and some last minute stuff happening. but through it all, Mr Tan stuck by us with his unwavering support and i'm seriously grateful for that. YAY TO MR TAN! :DDD i didn't expect myself to break down on friday but i guess i have never been a very expressive person to others and so i kept everything inside till it was too much to take. or maybe cause i was afraid of how people would see me so i just chose to zip my mouth despite my unhappiness. but thank you for those who were there! :D 

new perceptions; engaging communities was definitely more meaningful than the last new perceptions we had. the last one, i felt like i was doing everything more for the sake of completetion. but this time round, i was interested in the whole process. i felt like i wanted to do more and i dare say this time i've really given it my best! :D despite the ups and downs my team went through we made it! GOOD JOB YANTY, CHOO MIN and MEILING! :D 

and now it's pictures time! :D