;i'm sorry i can't be perfect.

misses )):

two dosages of panadol. had a really bad headache. ):
but thankfully, its much better now.

was making the video of UNACAS for tomorrow's orientation. looking at the photos and videos stirred up loads of emotions inside me. A part of me felt like tearing. i really miss cambodia a lot. i miss the children and youths there. i miss the time i spent with them. i miss the hugs and kisses they gave me. i miss the sweet words they said to me. i miss their unconditional love. i really miss them all. i miss coca, narong, channa, sara, bell, srey pea and srey nang. )): 42 more days!!! i'm counting down.

good friends

time spent with good friends is the most precious thing ever. (:

accompanied tecky to queensway after school.
long time since i've really talked to him
so finally got to caught up with him :DD

talked to weiwen di on msn too.
i'm glad that you still treat me as your jie
we've known each other for 3 years plus?
let's hope it go on and on forever (:
i'm sorry if i have neglected you
cause i thought you didn't want to talk to me anymore =/
wild imagination again.
but anyway i love you (:
and anything i'm only a phone call or sms away ((:

talked to sheena on the phone
lots of laughter
i just love that girl to bits <33
psst. you better listen to me talk about cambodia =x

jiahui is a very very happy girl today :DDD though something did dampen my mood a little but i'm too happy to be affected by it. (:

i love geraldine, angeline, melissa, weiwen, tecky, sheena :DD

happy! :DD

helped out at the dog show on both saturday and sunday. sales of friendship bands on saturday was real bad. only earned $18. The booth was at a very secluded area so we didn't get to sell much. but on sunday, we managed to earn $239! woohoo! (: one man donated $60 (thanks to jackson). He didn't want to take the bands but eventually took because jackson told him to. such nice people still exist! (: really get to see all kinds of people when we were selling the friendship bands. there was this lady who actually said, "donate to singapore only la". =/ oh well. managed to collect $1000++ for all the sales! yay! double yay! triple yay! let's work harded to earn more money for UNACAS! (:

went home with irene, aik nen, matthew. the most exciting we did was to climb over a super tall fence like about more than half my height. lol. was really painful but yet fun. lots of laughter with the three of them. ((:

anddd coca replied my e-mail! :DDD jiahui is a happy happy girl today! :DDD

remembered

a warmth that radiates through the heart.
i know i'm loved.
i know i'm cared for.
and i know i'm remembered.

recieved an e-mail from someone at UNACAS after so long. thank you bell. your e-mail brightened my day, like totally. (: they said that they have recieved the letters that i have mailed to them (: i miss them all so much. my darlings. ): i can't wait for june 10! (:

and most impotantly, thank you irene! i love you! (: thanks for the sweetest words ever! i'm really glad that i met you on this YEP trip. what could i do without you? (:

wonderful day which soured since afternoon.
ahhh. wtf.
it's so late. i can't find someone to talk to.

made my day (:

a simple thanks can make someone's day.
well, at least it made my day (:

a simple "i have faith in you" can make someone's day.
it surely made my day (:

a simple good job, congratulations can make someone's day too.
it made my day too, yesterday (:

thank you to these three people! <33

day 20. i'm still waiting.
i miss unacas. i miss coca,narong,channa,sara,sreypea,bell.

~~i'm so hypocritical~~
i just pray that everything will be okay.

waiting :'(
day 18.

anyway, some things you just can't say no even if you really want to.

day 16.
the waiting never ends. ):
this is an obsession. a serious one.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIN YEE!

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SIN YEE! <33

you're one of my very few joys in NP. thank you for being there! your words of encouragment or simply just listening has helped me go on! i hoped that you did enjoy your birthday celebration and that you liked my present! don't stress. don't emo. i'm always a phone call or sms away. I LOVE YOU! <33

day 15.

i'm still waiting. :'(

met up with sheena yesterday. was supposed to go to sim lim square to get my charger. and yes it's spoilt again. urgh. the second charger that i am going to get. anyway, dear irene accompanied me while i was waiting for sheena to come ((: thanks dear! so when sheena came, the smart me decided to wait for 67 at NP bus stop. after a long time, irene asked, over here got 67? den i realised my mistake. =.=

so walked to shell station to take 67. we actually ran for the bus. after a long time, sheena asked are you sure we take the right bus cause we at assumption school there. then i realised i took the bus from the wrong bus stop. so we ended up at cck instead of sim lim square. ahhh. how dumb could i get. didn't managed to get my charger in the end. but sheena ng thanks for accompanying me! (:

so had to go sim lim square in the morning to get my charger. urgh. i pray hard that my new charger last till i graduate. my heart super pain. cost me $51. that money could have been saved up to return to cambodia )): oh well.

returned to school to sell friendship bands and after that headed back to ctss for speech day. the 8 ladies were finally reunited after like so so long. took many pictures but i'm lazy to upload. xD scouts marching was much better than the rehearsals so good job guys! (: the only sad thing is that i didn't get to talk to mr chiang nor did i get to take a photo with him. ahh. i miss talking to mr chiang. ): headed to dinner with sijie, jchiang and jieming. (: and home sweet home.

day 14.

i'm still waiting.

the language of love transcends all cultures

what sheena told me affected me. its been so long. way too long. why does it affect me still? i feel cheated.

ahh. forget about these stuff. today choo min mentioned that "the language of love transcends all cultures" during speech comm lesson. how true isn't it? (: i was unable to communicate effectively with the children in the orphanage in cambodia. yet, we still loved each other despite these language barrier. (: my dearest channa, sara, narong, bell, srey pea and coca. i wonder how they're doing. can't wait for september (:

~~i hate to be lied to~~

day 12. i'm still waiting.

i can't stop this obsession.

i miss the children.

i miss cambodia.

i wanna go back, like now? ):

srey nang <33

waiting is just so torturous.
this obession has got to stop.

i hate myself for not being more understanding.
i hate myself for getting jealous.
i hate myself for losing my temper.

every single day, the same thing repeats.
i just want to escape.
be more understanding.
not get jealous.
not lose my temper.

i'm tired.

urgh. all the long hours spent in school has made me sick. and tomorrow is the start of the new semester. what a great time to be sick. oh well.

holidays have come and gone so quickly. hardly caught up with some during the holidays. haven't accomplished what i want to accomplish. i don't want school to start. argh. but i do want to see some people especially tecky. ): hardly talked to him these days.

i miss wei wen too. ): i see him almost every week but we hardly talk anymore.

boo.

drift. drifting.

drifted?

argh. wtf. screw it.

i'm so freaking jealous

saturday was great! (: went to SMU to sell the friendship bands that we had brought back from Cambodia. nice people do exist (: some people just donated without taking any of the friendship bands. yet, there were some irritating ones though. $2 for a friendship band with such elaborate design considered expensive? gosh.

but it was great being able to do a part for the children in UNACAS. (: plus it was great working with pei xian, melissa, irene and jackson! ((: haven't laughed so much in a day for such a long time. thanks for making my day <33

sunday was another great day too. met up with geraldine after so so so long. gosh. we were pigging out. =/ totally sinful. but i love the omelette rice at taka. uber yummy (: went to look for irene while she was at work.

ahhh. okay. i miss cambodia a lot. i miss the children in UNACAS even more. ): my dearest narong, channa, sara, srey pea, bell )): can't wait to go back cambodia.

<33

disillusioned.

jealousy.

happy.

loved.

too many overwhelming emotions. i've got to stop thinking.

i love my life.
because of everything else.
yet i hate my life too.
and it's always because of you.

honestly, i just can't wait to escape.

WOOHOO! "always ready to smile" replied my e-mail. eye candy xD was just sending photos. didn't really expect a reply. heh.

the lovely friends i made <33
irene. chihching. pei xian. melissa. jasmine. aileen.

happy april fool!

cousin: hey u kana virus
me: really? [starts to panick since i just downloaded something]
cousin: ya
cousin: better scan ur comp
me: omg. okay. i shall scan my comp
cousin: wait!!
me: hmm?
cousin: b4 u scan ur com.. i got something wanna ask
cousin: i mean tell
cousin: u ARE FOOLED
cousin: XD
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gosh. i can't believe i got tricked. second time today. and i have not tricked anyone yet. but anyway, HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL DAY PEOPLE! (:

srey pea and narong <33 misses )):
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