;i'm sorry i can't be perfect.

~~ultimate mood-swing~~
boo!

i miss you
oh yes, i do

~~i'm just a kid and life is a nightmare~~
oh yeah, life really is a nightmare to me sometimes.

i'm scared. i'm really scared. why does this big and scary monster, named jealousy, keep coming to look for me? why must he look for me? what have i done wrong? why can't he leave me alone? i hate it when he starts to look for me. i just so so so hate it. because everytime when jealousy creeps upon me, i can't help but hate myself. yes, i really hate myself. because horrible thoughts start to flood my mind. and i'm disgusted at myself. i'm really disgusted of myself having such thoughts. yes, i can't help but hate the person i am. i can't help it. why? stop haunting me please? stop those thoughts from coming? its killing me. my happiness. everything.

then i start to think, the world is an unfair place. why is the world so unfair? why? tell me the reason. just tell me. why do people choose to judge without knowing the full story? why? is it fair just to listen to one side of the story? is it? no it isn't. it never was fair. N-E-V-E-R. the world is an unfair and biased place. i hate it. just so hate it. selfish people everywhere. i don't deny the fact that i'm selfish at times too. but it depends on the extent of how selfish a person can become. i hate what i see. and sometimes, i just wished i could not see these horrible things. yes. i don't wish to see. i'm getting disillusioned of life. i really am.

~~sometimes life just don't seem to be worth living.~~

because of you
i don't know how to let anyone else in.
- promise never to leave me -

give me a reason to smile.

and i just want to run and run.

just keep running.

running away from reality.

because life totally sucks at times.

because i hate all these.
i hate it.
i just so hate it.
~~i hate getting scolded for no reason.~~

please, tell me, what in the world have i done wrong?

and its my escape. my only route out. because i can't take all these.
no, i can't stand the pain.

my happy day all ruined. happy now? ha. major spoiler. damn.

and i find myself
falling deeper and deeper for you
day by day.
and i know i could never let you go now.
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jiahui
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15nov1990
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