;i'm sorry i can't be perfect.

haha. i'm back. been some time since i've last updated. yesterday was a day. a very special day.(:. anw school has been hetic. i could just feel the heat. gosh. especially this week was just so crazy. the earliest i ever slept since sunday was 2am. =/. thanks to all the tests during that week. bleah. i so lack sleep man. worse still, the tests ain't going to turn out good. i just know it. sighs. ): oh well. i promise i'm gonna work hard and study hard like crazy after the chinese new year holidays. i ain't gonna be lazy anymore.

been cleaning out my room. only when i was looking through stuff did i realise how much rubbish i kept=/. i found my kindergarden stuff =xx. haha. oh well. new year is coming. ain't really excited by the prospect. the only thing that seems welcoming is the red packets. =x oops. but really how can i enjoy new year when my physics revision exam is on wednesday right after the chinese new year holidays? =/ guess i will have to bring along my book to study while i'm visiting. such an "enjoyable" holiday man.

bleahh. i'm still so sleepy.=/

i'm not alone
for i know
you'll be there

dang. mr lau hasn't posted the answers on ask n learn. wat the hell man. i've been checking ask n learn from dunno how long ago and the answers are not up.=/ and he said that we have to mark it by tml. how am i gonna mark when the answers aren't up? =/ gee.

alright. i'm in a freaking bad mood now. i feel so much like ~~crying~~. argh. i need to vent my frustrations. violent mood swing? *shrugs* probably

Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Please protect me

well i'm back. past three days was our aspire'06 camp. we attended the i am gifted so are you workshop. my second time attending it though so i knew most of wat was gonna happen. but it dawned upon me that after the first workshop that i had changed but den reverted back to the old ways and probably even worse? well. when that realisation struck me i felt horrible inside. so horrible. my tears just couldn't stop coming. how could i be so horrible not to appreciate wat i had. den while listening to people's stories, i felt so shaken up. i just couldn't control the tears. everything hit me so hard. the pang of guilt that shot through me was terrible, really terrible. well. i will change. i promise i will appreciate wat i have. moreover, i just wanna sae i love my parents! (: yeah.

my little star
that brightens up the dark sky (:

i was so happy. yet now i dunno how to sae i'm feeling now. regret? angry? sad? i really dunno. probably i shouldn't have open my mouth. probably i really shouldn't. my vision is so blurred and misty and my eyes are starting to get wet. sometimes i just wish that things aren't the way they are now. den probably things will be simpler and nothing would bother me...

well. a week of school has finally past. it has also been a week since i last blogged le. wat could i sae about school? well. it wasn't as bad as i expected. yups. in fact rather good ba. it feels great to be back and to be able to see my best frens every single day. yups. (: well. time really past so fast. this is my 4th year in ctss. and it also marks my last year and the year of my O levels. i'm scared.

my homework has been kinda piling up. guess i've really got to work hard this year. because i dun wanna experience the sinking disappointment that i had last year. it was horrible. kind of a nightmare. that results. something i had never expected myself to get. =/ this year i'm gonna work so hard. i'm not going to let anything affect me. gee.

sometimes i feel the distance between some of my frens and me. why did it happen? because of the holidays? i'm afraid as the days past the distance would get larger and larger. and finally we would merely be acquaintance. its a horrible and scary thought. take the initative, some may tell me. but sometimes it gets tiring to always take the initative. *shrugs*

without saying a word
you can light up the dark
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jiahui
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15nov1990
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