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haha. i'm bored. back for another entry. there is absolutely nothing i can do on the comp. msn blog friendster wat else? argh. why must the graphics card spoil when its my holidays. i wan play maple! i wan play maple! i wan play maple! argh!=/ darn it. its damn boring. argh. bleahh. i'm bloated. wahaha. had pizza hut for dinner. celebrating my birthday in advance!=)) yeah man!=)) keke! so shuang man! argh. i'm really bored out of my mind. *sighs* anw. somethings are best left unknown!=)) the best is to stay positive man!=)) *smiles* in my heart you mean the world to me i'm lost without you courage
说还是不说？讲还是不讲？ 我真的不知道该这么做才好。 wheee! at long last, i have taken the final exam of the year!=)) woot! this spells F-R-E-E-D-O-M man! haha. so damn happy. when teacher collected the paper i was so happy because this marks the end of studying for the time being! yeah man!=)) haha. past few days everything was chinese chinese and more chinese. gee. last nite couldn't get to sleep, chinese words and all keep flashing in my mind. moreover my heart beating damn fast. was damn nervous man. but well it didn't turn out to be as difficult as i expected though. yups!=)) now just pray hard that i can get an A1 and my efforts won't be wasted. gee this holidays really dun seem to be like holidays=/ gee. two weeks of the holiday must go back to sch like normal days frm 8 to 1.30. =( moreover on the 10 and 15 got extra chemistry remedial. argh. my birthday is all ruin. not only got normal lesson still got remedial. wat the hell. =/ argh! bleahhh. this holidays so many things i wan to do. i wan to go bowling and ice-skating again too! wheee!~~ probably tml going bowling man! yeah man! keke. but i suck at bowling though=x. well, heritage trail coming up. lets hope everything goes well on that day man or not all our efforts will be wasted. sian. on that day should i follow one of the groups or walk around myself? *shrugs* walk around alone also quite interesting, man you qing qu de. lol. this few days, been in rather a bad mood. i guess my attitude probably sucks, especially at home i guess. *sighs* sorrie man. i don't know wat came over me. exams stress plus other things keep adding on. i know that doesn't give me the right to throw my temper about so i'm really very sorrie. i've been wondering. some people always say leave things to fate. but doesn't fate lies in our own hands? i've always believe that fate lies in our own hands. probably there really is fate but its still up to us whether we want to change our own fate or keep things the way it is. oftenly, when things go wrong, people blame it on fate. but why do things always wrong? things always happen for a reason. things don't just simply go wrong to bring pain to a person. there is bound to be something to be learnt in every single thing. moreover, the value of friendship. how many people out there really treasure friendship? sometimes i feel so doubtful. i wonder how many of my friends really value our friendship. i have my doubts for some. because i'm sick and tired. i don't have the energy. friendship is between two people. its a two-sided affair not just one-sided affair. it takes two to mantain a friendship not just one. i'm really tired. i lack the courage to letting you know i dun have the guts to face the subsequent consequences i wish you will know i wish you can feel it. moodswings?
argh. i slept at 1.30am last nite and woke up at 7.30am to complete the 5 exam papers before remedial. and guess what? guolian msg me at 8.00 and told me the remedial was cancelled! WAT THE HELL! =/ gee. dunno wats wrong with me, feel damn cranky todae. i need more sleep i need more sleep i need more sleep. dark circles are starting to darken around my eyes. argh.serious moodswing man. suddenly feel so moody and frustrated now. so weird. one moment like so happy. the next i become moody. shucks. *sighs* i also can't seem to control my mind. when i'm all alone studying and listening to music, it runs wild. tot of so many possible things possible scenarios. i can't waste my whole life away guessing people's feelings can i? i really want to know. once and for all. the truth. everything. i dun wanna guess. i'm afraid. i dun wan to make the same mistakes again. well. later gonna chiong chiong chiong and study! no more slacking le man. i'm gonna concentrate! i'm not gonna think i'm not gonna think i'm not gonna think. i'm gonna study i'm gonna study i'm gonna STUDY! in you i found everything i wanted it was just my wishful thinking new blogskin
wheee! just changed to a new blogskin! haha. no longer black anymore eh? =x come to tink about it..i have changed so many blogskins before and this is only the second skin which is not black. gee. angeline mei once said i seem so sad becos i always use black and gloomy skins. *shrugs* wonder why but i just like black. haha. but finally now is a more cheerful and bright colour. becos wat else could i sae? haha. i am HAPPY!=)) lol. i love this skin man. gee. is it nice? =xgee. suddenly after the exams keep blogging. like got addicted to blogging again. haha. weird weird weird, weird me. lol. well. todae gonna get rid of all distractions and pia for my chi le man! i must must must get an A1 this time or not i'll be dead. gee. sian. so tired. argh. i woke up at 8 and i couldn't get to sleep le. *yawns*. i wan more sleep! i wan more sleep! haha. i suddenly feel so contented. so happy. yups. why shouldn't i be man? i've got everything i wanted. family, friends and all. wat else could be better than that man? =)) haha. i love my family! i love my friends! i love everything! =)) haha. Mayday - 知足 怎么去拥有 一道彩虹 怎么去拥抱 一夏天的风 天上的星星 笑地上的人 总是不能懂 不能知道足够 如果我爱上 你的笑容 要怎么收藏 要怎么拥有 如果你快乐 不是为我 会不会放手 其实才是拥有 当一阵风吹来 风筝飞上天空 为了你 而祈祷 而祝福 而感动 终于你身影 消失在人海尽头 才发现 笑著哭最痛 那天你和我 那个山丘 那样的唱著 那一年的歌 那样的回忆 那么足够 足够我天天都品尝著寂寞 当一阵风吹来 风筝飞上天空 为了你 而祈祷 而祝福 而感动 终于你身影 消失在人海尽头 才发现 笑著哭最痛 (2) 如果我爱上 你的笑容 要怎么收藏 要怎么拥有 如果你快乐 不是为我 会不会放手 其实才是拥有 (知足的快乐 叫我忍受心痛) its not the same this time round i know it i feel it its much different ilu* =))
feel so relieved man. todae got back the marksheet. i dun need to go for PSI!!! yay! i was like so freaked out tinking that my parents had to go meet the teachers. my l1r5 was like exactly 18.just 1 more and my parents would have to call mrs tan up le. phew. well. i got 19 in class 61 in lvl. i've improved frm term 3 but dropped frm term 2 and 1. luckily, my ca1 and sa1 really helped me alot. miss choa sae that i seem to have underperformed for quite a few subjects including english. hmmm. true=/. i expected to get better results for english though but i was too careless in my situational writing. sighs. well, i dun really have the mood to study for chinese O levels. hello..its just after exams? gee but i guess gotta hang on. no more slacking for me today le. i must study alot todae. or not i will be in big trouble since i have only about 9 days left? which seriously isn't alot left. so shuang man. 15 dec going to mrs tan house for bbq den 17 dec going to miss choa house for her wedding. haha. wonder how she will look like in a wedding gown? gee. can't wait for 1/11 to come man. haha. that is when the real holidays start for me and the rest of the hmt pupils! yay!=)) waiting for that day to come man. i have believed i have waited patiently but will it turn out to be wat i expected? i wonder. will you ever know i'm frustrated. i'm frustrated. i'm frustrated. i'm frustrated. i'm frustrated. i'm frustrated. i'm frustrated. i'm frustrated. i'm frustrated. i'm frustrated. i'm frustrated. i'm frustrated. i'm frustrated. i'm frustrated. i'm frustrated. I'M FRUSTRATED! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE PLEASE! well. finally got out everything. gee. my heart is weighing down like crazy. great! i failed my bio wats worse is that i cld pass just that i was careless and miss out one question. wat the crap. i'm so tired. so lethargic. i really need a break. i dun wan anyone to bother me. can't i just have some peace? some time alone? argh. this sucks. moreover o level chi is coming and frankly i haven't really started. i feel so sick of everything. i'm moodless. first time fail two exam papers? can i take that lying down? no i can't. i seriously can't. *sighs* the difference in sec 2 and sec 3 is just so great. i use to do darn well for sci in sec 2 and now? its like crap just so crap. didn't shed any tear todae. becos i'm tired. there are no more tears to shed. yah. i noe i deserve it. deserve such grades. becos i didn't manage my time well and i wasn't discplined. i noe i noe i noe. i dun need anyone else to tell me. i dun wan naggings all i ask is for some words of comfort. i noe my mistakes i wun commit them again esp next year. just let me be. dun try to tell me wat went wrong. i noe it better than anyone else. i feel like crap now. argh. off to study. shucks. the fear of getting hurt the fear of losing since i chose to give my trust once again i shall believe. =(
todae got back some of my results. wat more do i have to sae? disappoinment? anger? happiness? well. there was an improvement in some subjects but others drop drop drop.=(haix. i failed my chem. this is the first time i failed an exam. so darn disappointed with myself man. well. i regret. i really REGRET. but its alreadi too late for regrets. why do i always regret only when its too late? i didn't manage my time well. i didn't set my piorities right. i should have placed my topper most piorities on my studies not guides. i concentrated too much on guides and neglected my studies in some way or another. becos of ndp i didn't had enuff time for studies due to poor time managment. and when ndp is over and exams are here it was too late to catch up. just too late. i nv expected myself to end up with such results. my dreams seemed to be dashed. i'm affected by my marks i'm affected by it. why can't you understand how i feel? well. its over. mr lau is right. the most impt thing is that i must NEVER GIVE UP. i won't. haix. i dread tml man. tml getting back bio. i have v v v bad feeling abt bio. but still have to face it. haix. the exams are over yet i stil have chinese O level to study for but i just can't pick myself tgh to study! argh! well. back to studying if thats possible. i'm sinking deeper and deeper into this bottomless pit. that sweetness. that tenderness. that gentleness i dun wanna be Previous Next |
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