;i'm sorry i can't be perfect.

hmm. almost been a month since i last updated. wow. seems a pretty long time. not that nothing is happening just that too many things are happening at such speed that i just dun have time to take in everything. yups. good things bad things all have. i guess thats life you can't expect that every single thing that turns out must be fine and good right? yah. i have slowly learn to accept this.

the exams are nearing. i made a mistake in term 3. a mistake i dun ever wanna commit again. that disappoinment. that terrible cutting disappointment that i can't forget. up till now i still feel disappointed. well. i fear the nearing exams. wat if i do badly again? i must do well. i can't do badly. i can't i can't. wei long once said wats the point of taking thriple sci if u can't do well in at least two sciences. so why am i taking? why? sec 1 and 2 i love sci i did well in it but now its just crap man.

i felt all my confidence vanish in a minute yesterday. i felt so weak so helpless. yah. something i didn't feel for a long time. no matter wat people told me the sinking feeling in my heart was still there. i felt like i couldn't be. foolish i was indeed. it was only when geraldine talk to me did i come to my senses. how could i give up so easily? i was the one who always told ppl not to give up and yet i was on the verge of giving up too. "ni bu neng wei le yi ke shu er fang qi zheng ge sheng ling" thats wat my dearest sec 3 guides told me. yah. its true. i can't do such a thing like that. all i can is thanks a million esp to GERALDINE who really woke me up. and also cannot forget to thank LIMIN and every single SEC 3 GUIDE! thanks thanks!=) lets work well tgh! i wun be defeated so easily. i will remain strong. thanks everyone!

i feel much cheerful now. well 5 more days to chinese paper. gotta study! byeee! will be back only after eoy or probably O levels.

was it wrong of me to fall for you?
i hate myself for falling for you.
tell me, do u even treat me as a friend?
maybe u don't.
i'm just living in the world of illusions
that beautiful world of lies and deception
to make myself happy.
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