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life is like a glass, just so fragile, u drop it and it breaks. it will be gone forever. even if its mended back, there will still be visible scars there. it really makes me scared thinking for the fragility of life. so we shld actually treasure our loved ones for we will never ever know wat will happen tml. yups. we shld show our loved ones how much we really care. express our love for them out before its too late..too late for them to even noe. i'm scared. i'm really scared that i will lose any single one of my loved ones. i fear that day. yeap..i really fear it.suddenly, i just feel so small so scared, like a little girl scared of every single thing. i dunno wat has come over me. probably i tink too much? well, my mind just seems to wander off. no matter how i try to stop it from wandering, it just wun obey me. there are so many things on my mind. many many many. the biggest thing in my mind and heart now is the mid year examinations. yesh..and its my biggest fear now. i fear the exams. its misery. really scared. i wan to achieve good results, make myself proud, my parents proud, and not let all my teachers down. the heat of the exams is rising and so is the pressure. the load on my back seems to getting heavier and heavier. i shall do well. a b3 for my physics..a1 for chem i shall try to attain these results. i shall.. *tong hua li dou shi pian ren de... yo! i'm finally back..haha..speech day'05 rawkks man!=)) haha..the sensation than ran thru me while marching as the band played was really something that cannot be described with just words..it was so damn enthralling man!=) haha..yups..we did it! we made it for the march past! so damn happy! i felt that our marching was really good..haha..this thrilling experience is smth that i will never ever forget.. the sastifaction felt at the end of the whole parade was just too good man..this makes me even can't wait to march in ndp..for the sastifaction wld be much greater than..haha.. yups..den managed to take alot of photos man..haha..so happy..finally managed to take a nice photo wif limin, melissa, weiwen etc!=) too bad..angeline went back home early couldn't take wif her..yups..didn't managed to take wif a few more ppl..sad man..but there is still next year..keke!=)) internet was down for a few days..i guess its telling me to concentrate on my studies and stop spending my whole time on msn..thats wat i'm gonna do..i'm goona cut dwn on my msn usgae and work hard for the mid year exams! yups..i ain't gonna give up..those tests that i failed is only motivating me to work even harder..and i shall do that and achieve the results that i wan! for NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!=)) well..anw good luck and jia you for the mid year examinations everyone! hang in there! its only the beginning! endure! * that day is smth i will never forget.. it shall be kept deep in my heart forever* sick and tired of the DAMN thing called LIFE
ReflecLook at me You may think you see Who I really am But you'll never know me Every day It's as if I play a part Now I see If I wear a mask I can fool the world But I cannot fool my heart Who is that girl I see Staring straight back at me? When will my reflection show Who I am inside? I am now In a world where I Have to hide my heart And what I believe in But somehowI will show the world What's inside my heart And be loved for who I am Who is that girl I see Staring straight back at me? Why is my reflection Someone I don't know? Must I pretend that I'm Someone else for all time? When will my reflection show Who I am inside? There's a heart that must be Free to fly That burns with a need to know The reason why Why must we all conceal What we think, how we feel? Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide? I won't pretend that I'm Someone else for all time When will my reflection show Who I am inside? When will my reflection show Who I am inside? i'm finally back..yups..this week has really been a super duper hetic week..really stressful..i cld have died under the pressure. the heat is rising..mid year exams are just round the corner..waving hi to me..this thought really scares me..so little time yet so much things to be done..in a flash the exams and the whole of term two would be over..i better buck up now..my marks ain't exactly wat u call great..wat is wrong wif me man..where is the girl i was in sec 1 and 2..i somehow lost myself in this world of confusions..i'm lost..where am i exactly? where is the old me? i wan to find myself back..i dun wan these stranger i am looking at now whenever i look in the mirror.. all i see is just a distant stranger staring back..who is she..i ask? searching for the old me..i'm searching..searching continuously. not giving up..i'm not..for i believe in NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE! sometimes i really wished i could be free from all the problems, stress workload and everything. i know life isn't just all the problems and i am indeed grateful becos i am indeed blessed wif great friends whu really care but somehow i wish life wld be more perfect..a peaceful life wif my great frens ard me, no probs, no stress..just live every day to its fullest happily..isn't that just so pleasant and perfect? but nothing is perfect, nothing has reached to the stage of perfection. perfect is just a meaningless word, becos there is no such thing as perfect. we spend our whole life continuously seeking for perfection yet the day when things turn out perfect will never come. but why do we still seek for perfection? why? its really weird isn't it..hmmm [[i'm not a perfect person. imperfect -me-]] tml speech day le..wahaha..so excitedd...lets do our best alright..keke..we shall prove that girl guides ain't lousy after all!=) haha..cts 1st coy rocks..lets give it our best shot! jia you! i wish that you cld be here* life=(
wat was meant to a happy and wonderful was ruined, all ruined. things were just so nice so perfect ytd, i nv felt that kind of happiness emitting before in such a long time. going to the beach wif angeline mei, tecky and ying hao really brightened my day. yups..really enjoyed myelf veri much wif them and the musical fountain was really damn nice..haix..but when i came online..things were ruin really ruini just broke dwn upon hearing that, i dunno y, was i really a much happier person last time? mel also said so, izzit really so? i wonder. probably ba, its only now that things have become so complicated. i can't take it. suckers
a hetic and tiring sch week has finally passed. really tired out man. my eyelids are getting really heavy, about to close any moment. *yawns* gee..this week in sch really wasn't good at all..or rather i'm probably getting really sick and tired of everything, sch , friendship probs and class..haix..yupswats worse still is tt mrs tan must go change our seats..wth man!! arghh! so pissed off man..y must she change our seats of all the things lor..and she change it in benefit to her subjects maths..wah biang..only care abt her subject one lor..wan us to do well in maths den change our seats..wat is this mann..haix..i hate my new seat..i just like the old one so much..i mean sitting wif yiming is okay la..but the previous arrangment was better..wif limin and michael behind..xiao xuan beside and nan yan yiming in front...it was so much better..not forgetting yuan pin sitting right at the back..haix..sian diao..i vow i will get full marks for my maths test and sit wif limin man..i will de! i will!! yups..i've been really bad tempered lately, seriously i can't stand being in class any minute longer at times..i dunno y la..haix.. anw..seriously..to me the worst kind of ppl are BACKSTABBERS ..yups..these ppl simply sucks man..ya..well if u dun like me..i'm simply fine wif it..it may hurt but i'll get over it soon enuff..ya..or u can tell me straight and i shall disappear frm ur sight or u can avoid me..but pls dun act like u treat me as ur good fren and all tt but go behind my back and backstab me..its really underhand alright..and i despise such ppl..ya..i despise them! GET OUT OF MY SIGHT! STOP PRETENDING! yesh...i'm pissed off..pissed off with almost eveything..damn it! hate me or like me..its as simple as abc..just dun backstab me... its so nice to be happy!=)
yo! haha..last nite was toking to sheena on the phone halfway..haha..den sudd i just fall asleep..haha..den she dwn there keep on hello hello..i also dunno..den when i woke up i answer the fone..she hang up le..haha..stupid mann..haha..which shows i'm really damn tired man..i nv b4 fall asleep while toking on the phone..gee=/haha..todae early in the morning went for ndp training!!=)) haha..one word to describe it..haha..FUN!!=)) haha..yupss..todae was the army ppl come train le..no longer the young adults training us..seriously the army ppl train us more fun lor..haha..dunno y...like so damn fun lor todae..keke..not sian sian de..haha...but den we march in the rain..brrrr...cold man..*shivers* haha.. den after tt dismiss le...me jinyan mummy and sini went to bugis!!! lolx..den we walk walk walk..legs damn pain lor...haha..becos we wearing boots..=/ yupss...so went to mos burger to rest..haha..me and mummy slp..while sini so nice..keep awake look after our belongings..haha..den after that went to look for teck sheng daddy..keke! yupss..he always got tt blur blur..gong gong look! haha..funny man..all of us kept laughing thruout..haha..den after tt we took neoprints..haha..nice nice man! keke..den me and sini actually wan to bend dwn let daddy mummy take alone..but whu knows mummy also bend dwn den left daddy dwn dere one person!! hahaha!! somemore the same thing happened twice..lolx..daddy..so sloww..haha..yups..den we go design on the neoprint..daddy ask me write wat e hell..haha..den i added i am teck sheng on it..haha..me and mummy laugh and laugh like mad lor..its like damn funny..haha..this is the first time..take neoprints laugh until so cham..haha..yupss..den later force daddy and mummy take one tgh..haha..one word to descirbe: SWEET!!!=) haha den after tt we went back home le..gee..lolx..better pia my hw..have been a veri veri lazy gal todae=/..haha hmm..i really thank fate for letting me know ppl like: geraldine, angeline, limin, christine, jinyan, wei wen, teck sheng, melissa..yupss..they have been there for me always...i'm touched by their actions..and i always feel super duper happy when wif them..no worries up there!!=))..thx guys for every single thing u have done..just a little bit of concern u all have shown me..really makes me feel touched!!=D' ~its so nice to be happy!~shalala~!~ Previous Next |
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